From There 2 Here....

Growing away from friends is one of the hardest parts of growing up... mostly because the fault lies on our own side for losing touch with each other. Once my closest friend asked me how we had managed to lose touch.. This was my response to him.

He asked me how we fell apart?
He asked me who is at fault?
He can't actually remember,
When we went from here to there?
He asked me how we got from here to there?
And I said "I will answer it for you",
Though perhaps it was not the way he wanted me to.

We got from there to here,
On the clouds traveling through our dreams...
We got from there to here,
When the silence faded between us...
We got from there to here,
When we started believing a dream to be stronger,
than the forces that was keeping us apart...

And we were right then.
We stood in one of the best relations to the earth,
A relation called "friendship"...
We stood in a relation even envied by the Gods,
A relation called "buddies"...
We stayed in a promise that was all too beautiful,
A promise called "companionship"...
You see, we were Alive then
We still are,but altogether for a different reason...


Then,
We got from here to there,
when we started to believe reality to be stronger than love...
We got from here to there,
when we forgot that gravity held no hold on our souls...
We got from here to there,
when we left our dreams and got into real life shoes...

And now I do not know my world,
Even though I am all surrounded,
I can't find my friends,
And the beauty of life dies,
Shut out in the coldest of lies.

But I believe we can get from there to here,
If we just believe in each other...
And I believe we can get from there to here,
If we just take each others hands...
And I believe we can get from there to here,
If only in our dreams, we dream to be together again,

I whispered this to him,
When you're staring across the sky,
Somewhere between those stars and the moon,
Look for me by your side,
I'll meet you with hands outstretched,
Then we'll go - from here to there,
there to here, and back again.

What's Happening....Who is to blame...II

Old players are saying it should be dealt this way or that way... but I guess when you are not in their shoes(Soldier's) you can say anything...Those who lay down their lives are really brave.. But they are being treated in a way that they wud themselves be ashamed if they were alive... The common Police man... Poor guy.. Govt. is too much worried about the economy that they are building infrastructure like anything but our old Police infrastructure is still the same... I can say it cent percent if the Police had got better weapons, better Armour, better equipments for self defense and communications, then the toll wud have been may be around 10% of what it is now.Even with those outdated equipments they are willing to jump into the scene and lay down their lives shows how courageous they are, how determined they are.. I salute them,but these bloody politicians instead of making things better they wanna ride on this sentimental Patriotic feeling just to get back into politics.. shame on them..

I really appreciate the Karkare's family for rejecting Narendra Modi's offer of One crore.. Politicians are trying to measure the value of life of a martyr.. how cheap...No matter how much crore's gov spend or donate to the family who lost a son/daughter nothing is gonna change for the family.. they will still cry abt their loss.....Still their sacrifices are wasted.. When will People learn about life?When will Media think in terms of loss rather profiting from loss? Last but not least when will govt. take a stiff stand against the terrorism and provide the basic infrastructure to the armed Police n Military? Dunno still they blame each other?When will they stop that "Pushing Responsibility Away" game? We need answers to all of these...

Just look around you.. You will find for last few days suddenly the country has come alive.. everyone is talking about what everyone shud do and what cud have been done.. the age old Indian method.. Crying over the spilled milk..(or in malayalam "Chattha kuttiyude jathakam vayyikyukha")... Now notice this, this conversations will cease as soon as the cricket starts or some other issue comes up.. In simple words we need constant reminders like this that wud remind us that we are Indians first..So sad.. I dont find any wrong in the statement of Dy CM quoting "This small incidents do happen in big cities like mumbai". Can anyone point out whatz wrong in that. Sorry I cant see any casualness in that statement.. I am not supporting him but I am not against the statement. He said what every common man has to say(other than who lost someone they know). Why?? because until and unless you loose someone you will carry on as if nothing happened.

Each and every year new attacks and incidents take place..They are the real wake up calls for a week or so.. then again we all willl go into that old habit of sleeping, until our own home catches fire....(Ariyathey pilla choriyambole ariyoo)You will never know how it feels until you go thru that feeling... Isn't it true?? Think about it....but dont limit it to thinking only.. Be Vigilant..Be aware of what's happening around and be ready to help Police and others...



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What's Happening....Who is to blame...

Ya what tht happened was far away from me.. and as far I know I dunno anybody who is killed..
So why shud I bother anyway? Dunno how many children are orphaned, dunno how many mothers lost their sons and daughters.. and number of the relations lost list goes on...
Lot of calls came inquiring whether everything's alright.. I just thought what wud have happened if I didnt picked up the phone...Really wished if today was my last day...Wished I being one of them killed...Really can't believe in God now.. No Ram , no Allah and No Jesus.. Coz now humans are the gods and they are the demons too....

What's govt. doing...Is this the right time the media blamed the gov for being a mere spectator (As they always do)...Well excuse me, they(media) are only thinking abt how to make the news a sensational one and to increase their TRP's.. I wished some of their relatives shud have been killed in the attack.. then only they will know how it feels...Who knows? May be they will make it another TRP increasing news saying they have lost someone dear of their colleague. Fucking bull shit...Media sucks.. Pardon me for my language...I wished some MF media persons are reading this...

Media and Gov aren't the only culprits...or are they the only one's who shud be blamed for... we really forget while we point finger at them, four fingers are pointing towards us.. I guess you got the point...Everyone's quite busy, dont even have to time to think what's happening around the society until n unless it affects us...So what can we do.. I cant tell but definitely I did one thing I deleted all those bloody news channel out of my viewing list..How will that help.. I dunno but I believe they dont deserve my time...I am not telling all of them are exaggerating .. I still hang on to Doordarshan... I think they dont gave breaking news.. they only give us the truth...Sorry for this outburst at media.. they have themselves to be blamed for coz they are themselves making a mockery of this democracy (Freedom of Speech)...

Now the real matter.. no matter whomever we blame the we would still end up doing nothing coz we are not ready to blame ourselves...Why us?? Why not?? that wud be my question... No matter whatever the Intelligence or the government has to do the final line of responsibility falls on to us.. The worlds biggest Intelligence agency failed and WTC came crashing down.. Now whom do we blame..Govt can't send CID's behind each n every person of this country, then half of the people have to employed by the govt..Thatz not possible... So being an Indian citizen we shud come forward and help the Police n Govt out..We can at least take care of what's happening on or around society.. I think thatz not a big ask.. If we alone can't manage a building with few flats in it then how can we expect a mere 540 person to manage the whole country...


to be contd...

Dada - A legacy....

Dada played the last match today...or should it be the last match played by Dada... literally both means the same.. but in actual they mean different...

Dunno when n how he became my Icon...may be @ the time when Sachin became the undisputed hero of Indian cricket.. the world was crazy about Sachin but someone else made a mark in those time.. most of the people tried to ignore it.. but that mark was there to last... an era was about to begin....

A sad day for me and all Dada fans... coz no longer we will be finding that name on Indian score card....Ya its true good things never lasts forever... coz then how will we know the difference between good and bad...He started the hunger for victory spirit in the Indian cricket team, which once more or less depended on luck or some heroics by some individual.. he was responsible for making it as a team....

Nobody can take that away from him...and what Dravid and Dhoni got were the graduates from the College of thoughts of Dada only...He taught everybody when to attack.. actually he taught everybody what Being Offensive actually means...He was willing to take risk.. no wonder he became the most successful captain of Indian cricket team...

He has shown what a true comeback means...The most emotional ad I have ever seen.. still those words are fresh in my ears.."Kya patha phir se hawa mein shirt gumaane ka mauka mil jaaye"..
And he lived for that oppurtunity and grabbed it well and outshined everyone else..

No matter what I write or wrote above.. one thing is true..Life has no smooth road for any of us; and in the bracing atmosphere of a high aim the very roughness stimulates the climber to steadier steps, till the legend, "over steep ways to the stars," fulfills itself....
Such is his legacy... I am gonna miss him like anything...............

A different trip.....

So what's so special today..
Nothing...I am on my blog....weekday blues.. no work assigned today.. so am completely free to scribble something on my blog..Glad that someone invented the style of putting dots at the end of the sentences...to convey something beyond words..And I am not at all shy to use them whenever required to...see ;-) hope u got that.

Last month was so special.
I was @ my home, even though I didn't get enough time to spend at home but I was glad that I cud come back to my bed every night...

A very hectic vacation, traveling almost all days.
Met Sandeep , Umesh n Linu....
Can't say how it felt to see them again.Really it's true "absence makes heart grow fonder".
Not much of a change in any of them expect one is already married and the other two are in search for a better half.

Things do have changed, and changed for better I suppose. And being a part of this changing world, individuals do change.But I am glad that no matter how we change for the outside world we wud always remain the same when we are together. What you say Sand?

Traveling was quite amazing.Enjoyed every bit of it...Thought of writing a travelogue but it wudn't be much different from what I wrote previously...Same old story. But this time I experienced a different thing altogether. Coz the last travel was fresh in my mind and I didn't want myself to get tensed thinking about my date of return. So I planned to make the most of it and frankly telling, this time I was quite at ease while returning coz I was very much satisfied with the way I made the most of my stay. Had a great time with kids, playing with them, shopping with them, teasing elders with them, did lot of things along with them.Had a great time with frnds, relatives, and some good time with my mama... This time she didn't complained about not spending time with her..coz This time I was always with her.. traveled together.. visited temples together.. did shopping together....cooked together.. ate together... watched movies together... ya I did miss my bro for he cud have made this trip more memorable......

Might be feeling that I posted this blog a bit late.. No never this wasn't late a bit coz I cud feel that I am at home while writing this..This time it was quite different and I came back as a different person....I think that's the difference....

A Sneak Peak into Current Affairs

Didn't get enough time for blogging, frankly speaking hadn't had a decent topic to write about...
It doesn't mean I have some topic right now to write this.It just happened to me that I should put up my view on the current affairs.

Terrorism,What does that mean? Frankly I am clueless. If we go by the definition we can elaborate it as a phenomena of creating fear in minds of people.What kind of fear? Is it fear of dying or Is it fear of living?Newspaper will have a story related to that term everyday.Hollywood and Bollywood are making billions depicting this theme. Recently I saw a movie Mumbai Meri Jaan.... One dialog caught my attention the most, when a friend of Madhavan says "Everybody got quite adjusted to this act of violence". It was just a film but if a person has to say like that then definitely one thing is sure , he never lost anybody related to him in such an act. I am not saying he should loose one, but I am just thinking why dont people try to assess the loss of life. They will not understand how a family survives when its breadwinner dies in a bomb blast.Such is the sorry state of a country like ours. People dont know who resides in their neighborhood. When something comes up in paper then only they tend to think about it that too if the terrorist lived anywhere in his society.

One thing I noticed.. Years ago terrorist were those people who didn't had any educational background, were unemployed and were easily convinced into the so called fight for freedom.But things have changed drastically, now they are IT professionals , people having good source of income.Why then they have to fight someone Else's war? Aren't they educated enough to pick up the difference between a real war and a proxy war? A war that is being fought keeping them in front by some other big radical mind. Can' they see where this path is heading or are they so vulnerable to the follow these radical ideas without even questioning? Can't they see by doing this they are only shedding the blood of innocents? May be they can't see or may be they are so blinded by the so called freedom that they would even kill their own in order to achieve it.I think there's a flaw in basic education system. What flaw I don't know? I studied what other studied but I never thought that way and this thinking is not related to my religion or my faith. I believe in every faith , but that faith is now on the roller skate. Don't know whether it is going up or going down.Can't make it as I feel I have been left out of that.


Kashmir has always been the center stage of conflicts and disputes. I still remember people praying that their kins in army should not get posting in those areas. But now no place is safer. The war that started with the theme of getting an independent Kashmir has lost it's value over time as the whole world is coming against it. So the so called independence theme is slowly and steadily giving way to Communal ism. Communal crisis.. Is that what they want to create or Is that how they feel they can split up this Country. India has seen all sorts of invaders from time unknown and despite all those cruelties and slavery one thing that hasn't changed is that India has survived them every time.This time too it will. I think no other country shows this much patience. After sept 11 WTC incident America didn't waste any time to attack the so called terrorized country. Many people ask why India is waiting after all this act of cruelties.Peace has always been the main agenda of Indian think tank, otherwise this so called neighborhood would have been a quite human less place long ago.But once this patience runs out the their so called GOD will not be able to save them. No GOD preaches to kill innocents to get freedom.Actually no GOD preaches violence at all. By their doings I can feel that they are not doing it for any religion or any cause but only to satisfy the person behind them and create the so called fear in everybody's mind.


to be contd....

Beloved Sister...

To my beloved sister who always inspires me to be myself...
With Loads of Luv I dedicate this to you(Cute little Sis)...

What you mean to me,
I don have words to express.
You see, I had no sister when I was little
To call when I was in a real mess...

When we first met,
I really had no clue,
What was getting ready to happen,
Was not completely out of the blue.

I think God had a plan,
Throughout all the years,
He was making us for each other,
To share our smiles and tears.

I never could have imagined,
What a sister's love was about,
Until I met you,
And then I really found out.

Since then we're together,
Together pearls of joy we gather
You gave me unconditional love,
Showered me with all the care

You make me do things,
that alone I wouldn't dare.......
No matter its good or bad,
I know you stand by me in every weather.....

Never did I had to explain myself,
And that makes you real special...
Coz U have a heart's dictionary,
To fill up the words I never say......

Sometimes we may get mad,
Or we may begin to fight,
But that's the funniest part of all,
Coz,we both think we're always right!

I'm so glad that I did not have,
A sister like you in the past,
It's made me much more thankful,
For the sister I have at last....

Luv you dear...



I don have to name you ,
I don have to tell the world that it's you
Coz You know and I know the relation we share....
And what the world thinks we never care....
Isn't it dear.......

Consumerism

Today I had a chat with my school mate. We were just having a casual chat and he was asking me about the city I am living...So what can I say about this city. I told him I am not happy with the ways things are going here...

me: even though I am happy with my work here.. but I dont think I will make a consensus with my mind to settle in here..

in simple words this city Sucks

Junaid: acha....ohhh

y is that so bad

me: i wanna be on the calmer side of life.. not this bhaag daud..

and people dont have time for anything else.. always working n shopping

Junaid: ya..true fast life...those trains people etc

me: if u r not working then u r shopping or watching Ads,,

Junaid: ya true

ya...n very crowded also

this is big problem of city

me: and relations dont hold much value.. perhaps I thought I wud get something near south India.. people have more time there to spend..

Junaid: ok i c...

me: its not abt crowd dear.. its culture thtz changing

Junaid: ok i c...

me: u know Consumerism...

Junaid: ya...true

me: thtz the culture here... u work hard to make ur home comfortable but u didnt get enough time to spend at home.. what an irony..

Junaid: ya very true

life just goes behind chasing..non chase able dreams

me: and one more thing tht i am worried abt is the children.. they r now considering parents as bank accounts.. so i guess where tht relation goes...

obviously to dustbin..

Junaid: ok i c..

watch this article on consumerism

http://www.storyofstuff.com/

me: parents dont get enough time to spend around them so they buy them things.. the very things tht take their children away

Junaid: true...both parents working..not much time for children...

no proper inculcation of values culture

me: so what do u think where we are heading??

Junaid: ya..from culture n value wise..it is certainly not heading in good direction

So coming back to the topic... I was really moved by that Site about Consumerism...
You should see this. Even though it's basically about the US but if you replace that word with INDIA then it will make better sense..Watch it for yourself .. You can definitely connect to it..Why? Coz U r a part of it.Once you watch it you will feel the way we are being trapped in a cycle... A cycle that has a tendency of not letting you stop anywhere in between. I loved that concept coz it is for real. And it has been described in a most simple sense.

As I said. its an Irony that you never get satisfied with what you have.. Somewhere deep in your heart you think "I cud have done better".. If this feeling comes for an exam then its good but here it's for a totally different thing...A thing we think we can control but we are more into getting carried away...

Similarly everyone is Earning for comfort but have no time to enjoy that comfort. Then whats the use of that comfort. What this video doesn't say is that we should curb our needs or in other words we should clearly separate our needs and our wants. Its not about money only, its about your life. You ask for a better salary and indeed you get a better salary but in short time it will not seem enough. The thing we fail to notice is that our wants are getting converted to our needs every time and we take it that way. Dont blame on economy that Inflation is real high and things are becoming more costlier rather blame it on your way of prioritizing about the things that you really need.

At least we have a country to learn from. Where moral values are going to end up? Even though we know things we still consider that, they can be changed when we need. Sorry dear it's not in your hands alone. The world around you has already changed and you can now only be a part of it. What I am telling is that being a part of it doesn't mean you always have to play as others play. Its simple logic " Be content with what you have". I dont have anything against the Malls or those big galleria's but they definitely dont have a good effect on our culture..take for instant, you go shopping on Saturday and Sunday's , you will find people just happy to found that everything under a single roof and you will be happy coz you dont have to go to different places for buying different things.

But what have you failed to see is that it is getting infectious. Why the Malls are coming up exponentially? Simple answer for that is to increase your needs. Every one in the family has something for them in there and next weekend the family members are compelled to be there again. Dont you see the irony. People justify by saying they get enough time with their family while "Malling" that's the new term I am gonna use from now onwards...Malling is now becoming absolute fun at the cost of I don know you can think of what you are loosing.. If you are not able to come up with any loss then Congrats you are the real Consumer or the Malling expert.

I am not saying I am haven't gone to mall.I have and I found what difference it can bring out in me. I have twice went to mall for movies , but lately I realized I have been robbed of with my money. Ad labs , Fame, and lot more I don remember their name they offer you movie with almost 400% the actual rate... So guess what I did, I stopped watching movies in the Malls.. not bcoz I dont have money , but bcoz I dont have the extra money.. when You can catch a movie with same effect from a nearby theater in 60-80 rupees why need of going for the same movie @ 250-300 rupees.. A simple Logic...

What ever the result gonna be, I am only worried about how things are gonna end up on the cultural side. I remember during Onam we used to have everything prepared at home and we had everyone along with us and we shared a unique bond eating together and working and playing together... Nowadays we have Paper "Ela"(banana leaves).. Food prepared from some hotel.. served by some waiters and we think we celebrated Onam. I wud rather prefer not to celebrate than doing it this way... Now dont blame that you are in distant places and due to work you can't be there for Onam. Fuck up with those excuses.. Why are you working for..rather what are you working for??Its not only about Onam I am talking about.. It's all about the simple occasions which you once cherished and now you think you are not gonna share those moments again.. it's not you who has to be blamed for.. It's Consumerism.. You will find it hard to relate consumerism as the real cause.. Think.. you are missing the link some where.......

Dont think I deviated from the topic of consumerism... Everything is related in one way or the other.. it's just how you want to see it, makes the difference...

Dont forget about the site..it will take 20 minutes of your precious time.. if you think you are gonna miss that time(20 minutes) watching this ,then you are missing something, but if you miss that video then you are missing everything.....

http://www.storyofstuff.com/

Hope it's helpfull, understanding Consumerism.....

My Life @ College..

Felt about writing this a long time ago but dunno whether work kept me busy or something else.
Renju talked to me and he was almost into thrashing me for not starting it. He knows once I start scribbling I will not stop until I finish it.So here I am from the beginning where everything started.

Actually the real problem was where do I start. I think that was the biggest hurdle in front of me, which never let me begin.Beginning was the hurdle to begin.ha ha ha....Lemme give it a try....I will start from Day one and will go back to flashback whenever it is needed.. OK guys here it is....

Day One: Jan 6th 2000...

May be the biggest day of my life.Dad was with me. It was early morning and we were at Kozhikode(Calicut) railway station.We came from TVM by Kannur Express. Dad was posted at TVM. Actually for the first time I heard about Mananthavady when my admission letter came and I was totally clue less about where it came on the map of Kerala. Anyways I am going there only, will see it then. We reached Calicut bus Station(KSRTC), and boarded the only Super Express Bus for Mananthavady. So that's how my first Journey started towards my college.
We reached mananthavady 3 hrs later. The Driver was kind enough to stop the bus near college stop, this stop is really gonna be popular with time.

We walked towards the college. A big building was in my sight and I thought who said this is a new college. No way. We headed for the steps and as we reached top I was quite amused to see the big building, but dad shrugged and said there's your college. I saw a small Board in which it was written GECW. Oh this is it, now it lives up to the reputation of a newly started Govt. college. We went to college office and finished all the formalities and I was given a admission number of 147, may be one of the last persons to join the college.

Now as the formalities finished(admission), next task was to search for an accommodation. We went to The Royal CSE class, and there's Arun and Rengith standing at the corridors. My dad asked about the room and they said their room is already filled and it will be difficult to study if number of persons increase. That gave me the outlook of this college.. Truly professional ,students really serious about studies.. Can't stop myself laughing while writing this coz this is the first comedy I encountered in the college.(Rengith n Arun) will definitely laugh.I doubt whether Renju was there with them... anyhow will comeback to this incident later coz it's gonna be used a lot here....

By the evening we got an accommodation. It was in Thonichaal..@ Paul sir rental house and I got some cool new roommates... Jyothish,Sanoop,Sreejith,Umesh,Jishad, Baburaj and now I am added to their group(I dunno whether they liked me on the first meeting itself but definitely the first meeting was the start of a lifelong bond). After the formal round of introduction we were soon on the same boat... Dad left by evening, and this is gonna be first time I am seperated from my family altogether but I was already a part of another family. I thought about mama. She never left me out of her sight even for one day, I dunno how is she gonna react to this. She cried bitterly when I left. So I was in a bit of dilemma, whether to celebrate the new Freedom or should worry about mama. But slowly I got adjusted as I was in new family and they were just superb.Our home was a perfect Second home for me.

Sandeep and Binu Kumar lived nearby and soon Sandeep joined me in my room. And the family was completed....Next day i.e my first day @ college as a student:
Water was chilling cold, it was so hard to take a bath, still I manage it somehow and we were on our way to College...I dunno whether I got any attention when I first entered the class, but that was soon to follow...Met Ajith, Renju, Sivaji, Rengith, Arun and it was just fun as we had same sort of frequency tuning....Dont remember much of the classes that were taken on that day except one from Mr. Nisar. I remember he used to be HOD(Head of the Department) but it didnt took long enough for us to believe he was the real HOD. Hey guys hope you can fill up that full form, I dont want to protray anyone on this blog. I am just gonna write how it went in college......

So I will just start with some major incidents or what it can be called a Milestone of some sort...
(Guys it's not easy to write everything at a single stretch.. I will pin up regularly and each event mentioned below will lead you to a link describing that.. so keep this link in your bookmarks and visit frequently)... Comments are most welcome coz it'z natural I am gonna miss something so help me fill up the gaps and put up your thoughts too.....I am looking forward to it :)


First year:

The College......

The College BUS

Room n Roomates

Kaho Na Pyaar Hai- The premiere

GK

Meenangaadi

The Students Union

The Students Union-2

De Circle Goes On n On


So the College life is on the roll.. to catch up with the rest of the sections please visit the link :

http://zreecuscollege.blogspot.com/2008/07/college.html

Happy reading buddies....

Cloud Number-9...oh .. It's Countless...........

Clouds are my favorites...Dunno why but may be from the fact that they keep on changing and each and every time they dazzle me with their new shapes...Actually one thing can be learned from them.. they have come for rains and to give us a cover from scorching sun.. And they do it regardless of what shape they actually are.. So it doesn't matter how you look or how you appear all you need is to give everyone your best...I just love clouds and whenever I am with my cam I will make it sure it will have some distinct shapes of them. Sunrise , sunset. the blue sky all keep me busy with capturing them every time..

From all my previous journeys(with my cam) this time it was a bit different. Usually I travel by train and that gives me all the time in a day to catch up with them(clouds).. This time it was different coz this time I was not below them but I was actually flying among them, above them and eyes of my cam saw the unseen part of them i.e the other side,which we dont see from down below from earth.... So I was quite excited and my cam knew it's gonna have a tough time.

A morning flight from Mumbai to Chennai was good enough to get some morning picture of them...and the window seat was just perfect for the launch... It was an Indian Airlines plane and after 22 years I am flying with them again. I still had memories of my first flight travel when i was just 5.. The trip was just superb and I quite enjoyed my time.(But I missed those bunch of chocolates with the meals). So my flight got queued up for getting access to the busiest runway in India. Soon the throttle was on and the wings started shivering( I just thought that may be some bolts may be loose..)and I started imagining things..dunno when the flight was airborne and it cruised at good speed as I watched those big buildings getting tinier...



I was thrilled to get into the clouds(may be on the cloud number 9).. It was so beautiful that I cant express it in words.. Everyone visualizes the beauty but along with that I wanted to capture them in my small box... The vast blue sky with infinite number of pillows to sleep on....that was the way it looked..




I dunno when I started clicking but it was a continues process and I dont remember putting my head on the head rest.. "Sir your breakfast is here", the cabin crew interrupted. At first I hated that voice but when I turn around to see , I couldn't took my eyes of her. Hey, guys now please don't imagine things. She was almost 40 years old with no makeups at all and wearing a printed Saree... She looked so pleasant and with that smile on her face I was almost drawn to pull out my meal seat and accepting the tray. I finished it ASAP and she was again there to make my coffee wonderful. After I was done with my coffee she helped me out with the tray..Beauty inside and outside the flight !!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!( my cam got a time to take a nap so guys it didn't took any snap of her :) :) )............

And then my cam took the center stage clicking non stop and getting all those clouds inside. The wing (actually the right side wing) was quite rocking whenever the flight approached turbulence. Waves of clouds, Single clouds, lot of shapes Clouds, Clouds everywhere but not a cloud to touch.. :(.....


I wished I cud touch them. They were just indescribable.

Among the clouds, in the blue sky,
I felt as if heaven flew by.................
High above from the earth it fly,
Got it too late,I wondered why......

Every time I was down there,
I used to stare at them from everywhere....
With innumerable faces it travel,
Leaving me all down there to marvel....

Watching them fly right below,
Feeling like a bird high above,
With a bed of cushion to comfort,
Now I was up here with them to stay afloat...

And the Journey continues...... as it always does..........

Rain Rain......

Rain rain!!!!!!!!!!!!
where have you gone..
It's so hot and humid,
Come and drench us all ...

Of Course Rain God has turned his deaf ears to Mumbai..
It's been one week that it has rained and it gradually shoot up the temperature..
It's hot in night and humid in day and sweating is all that I do....
It's so cool and calm feeling when it rains...dunno why sleeps creep in from everywhere...
And in the morning I don wanna be out of my bed ......
But anyway I have to go office..even if it rains or if it shines...
It's true that I hate getting wet on my way to office but there are times when I can't do much and had to get totally drenched and reach office in those wet clothes..

And when I am inside my room already chilled with AC I felt I should have remained at home..
Felt like as if I have landed directly in a tropical rain forest.. so cool so chilling when it rains..
But there are no trees at all...(after all it's an office :) ...)
Instead there were cabinets , PC's, tables and lot other things.. It's an Computerised Jungle...
And rain forest comes with lot of insects, mosquitoes and lot other organisms which makes it difficult to stay..But in here we have software BUGS and they are more than enough to substitute all of them.. frankly it's more dangerous than those in real jungles.....

I love rain more than I hate getting wet to office..
but I hate rain but less than I love getting drenched....
Anyways logic is same....

Hey now two days after I started writing this article..Guess what it started raining....
Now I can say:God do listen..... " Woh sabki sunta hai par Jawab apni marzi se hi deta hai"
....(He listens to everybody but answer when he feels to do so.... :) hope that's not a sarcastic humour on GOD..............

De Vacation......

Its been long since I visited my own blog.....
ya it's been really long..
I was on a vacation.. a vacation far from work, far from everybody...
Took sometime for myself...
Get to feel the lighter side of life ...
A life being far from daily nagging of work and all the business ...
Was quite a calm stay at home.. guess what 40 days..
And if that's not enough another 30 days in Delhi....
So I was quite away...but didn't felt it was too long as some of you may assume...
And some will say tht it was rather a long vacation.. (Govt. Job offers that freedom)....
The slowness at home was quite consuming...rather it consumed the whole of me...
Kids, relatives all were just happy to spend time with me..
The most amazing person was my one and a half year old Cousin(what an age difference)..
He was so naughty, a smaller version of Hanuman....
And it was so funny to annoy other people with him...
And day by day he is getting smarter to.. me too (in annoying people ha ha ha..)..
In one sense I was the smallest kid back home playing with everyone didn't even spared grandma..
Needed just a break like this..
It was a mess before(my life) and I was at the highest Self own messing point in my life...
But now after de "Vacation" it's turning on to my way and clearing up all the mess I made....
Planning to move on to somewhere near to my home...
Next year home is gonna be houseful .. My family is moving in... what else can I ask for...
A job near home within few hours reach.. that's the best thing I can ever think of right now...
Eagerly waiting to get into those kid's shoes once again...

Home Sweet Home....

In two days I am leaving for my home. A bit thrilled thinking of the travel and the time I am gonna spend at my home. Last time I was there for just a week and this time I am in for a month's vacation.

A real vacation and I have already made lot of plans. It's a big family get together this time coz for the first time in my 26 years of life I will be with all the members of my whole family. The same very thought gives a feel good feeling.

There was always a difference whenever I am at home and I think I have said that in my previous posts. This time I will write a different travelogue altogether. Really I am missing my home, even though I know that I am not gonna settle in there for a long time but still that feeling that I have somewhere to run to when I am totally exhausted, is so comforting. A comfort for which I dont have to pay any taxes... :)

कहीं दूर किसी गाँव में एक छोटा सा आशियाँ हैं मेरा ,
ओस से सजे पेडों के बीच एक छोटा सा घर है मेरा ।
उसके आँगन मे खेलता है मेरा वो ना भूलाने वाला बचपन ,
उसके चार दिवारी में पनप्थी हुई वो प्यार भरी खुशियाँ ।
यूं तोह वहाँ मैं कुछ दिनों का हूँ मेहमान ,
लेकीन वोही पल ज़िंदगी भर के लिए छोड़ जाती है कुछ याद भरे नीशान ।

The Unknown Stranger........

An unknown stranger drowning in life,
With dreams shattered by dances of loneliness...
Carrying the leftover of darkness,
And shouldering the fallen soul of solitude...
The riddles unfolding from the murky sky,
Will remain unanswered till the eternity...
Grooved by wilderness of seclusion,
And de proximity of de mirage horizon....

Rationally dwells in the peculiar hell,
Realizing the impeccable reality.
Trying to unfold the real scum within,
And unleash the naked truth of bitterness..
Have nowhere within to shelter the sins,
Haunted by the dark images of fear,
Tightly foiled in the wings of secrecy,
And pricked by the cold heartless winds..
A destitute attempt to reach out,

Thrashed by the very own shadow....

A wanderer in search of an Identity,
Searching through the valley of dullness,
Deep inside heart painted with greyness,
And surrounded by an uncanny silence..
Lurching towards the unsighted redemption............

A stranger who is unknown, but known to everyone....his journey continues... and it goes on unnoticed till someone else travels his way...

Where are We???

(Part-II)

I don’t know how much I am able to bring out the actual difference between the ways of thinking. We tend to think in a different way but we are actually traveling through the same pipes of thoughts. We want to become independent. And the main theme of independence here is the economical independence. I agree it’s just a part of independence but not the whole.

So where are we actually?? I don’t know where we are heading to? We work, we earn and we thrive to perform better every time, but are we actually getting better? Sooner or later a time will come when we all will think about this way of life and what we are getting from it. But I fear it will be a bit too late for changing anything.

The mindset is something which either we should try to understand theirs or something we should create new for ourselves. There are lots of things that we even though know but pretend that it is not much of a concern. We learn a lot of things all through our life from childhood to the stage we are at present now. Things taught by our parents, by our friends and by our society, a society which thrives on the very aspect of tradition and culture. But soon there will be no culture left at all to follow .Don’t let that culture die away , don’t let materialistic things to take control of our life.

Coming to the bottom line of what I was trying to convey, I am not against anything but I am not in for everything that this fast life has in store for us. Remember everybody has a moral responsibility for everything that happens to the Mother Nature and mankind. Don’t think science will find answers for all the problems….

Where are we???

(Part-I)


I thought what's bothering me.May be the fact that I am just counting my days in Mumbai. I am just growing restless from the fact that very soon I am moving out to my native place. I dunno how it was here, it was quite ok as far as I believe. Learned a lot of things and not all of them I really wanted to learn.It's a fast life here, have to adapt soon or else you will be made to adapt.

All things have just their materialistic values, that's all, thtz the end of everything. You use it to it's maximum and then try to find something better than that. So everything is spinning around the simple logic of "Use n Throw".People competing just to get better than what their neighbor's has.Why ?? "Can't they get satisfied?? No way"."Nothing satisfies me" that's the motto I suppose everybody is following here.Nothing is spared not even the relations.You will find lot of people complaining he/she is not of my type. Then why do they went out first of all. It's just the first impression that draw one person to another,then slowly the true person reveals out and that's the end. Everybody knows the fact that no two person are same, then what's the use of complaining of being not of their type. Why everyone wants other gender to be his or her type?Why are they not ready to accept the truth? No way, it's satisfaction that always counts.

Satisfaction is not what you get when you get what you wanted. Satisfaction is something what you feel, when you believe that your needs are fulfilled. So satisfaction is what you believe.Even if you get everything you will never be satisfied and even if you dont get everything you can still be satisfied within yourself. It all depends on how you differentiate your wants and your needs. Wants and Needs are two different things.But it has become same nowadays.Actually people are misinterpreting them for one and the same. And this is not the story of one single metropolitan city named Mumbai. It's same story for each and every city in India.

Everybody trying to catch a culture that's far more western. No matter how hard people try to imitate, their imitation will always be at least a century behind.Coz people are just following their lifestyle, regardless of the actual mindset they should be in. No matter what, until and unless they dont take western mindset into consideration,whatever they do will still be termed as "following".

What is that Mindset of western people? I dont think I can define that but I can very well give you some instances of their ill effect and good effect. There are lot of good and bad effects of that mindset too. Remember nothing is pure or perfect not even god coz we all are creations of his imaginations.And imaginations are not perfect always.Lot of imperfections will remain. The biggest advantage,people are free over there, free to think free to adapt and most important they are open to any idea. They believe in doing something new every time and every time they do it it set standards for people over here to follow.

We will always be followers,simply coz we cant be thinkers and we dont want to be leaders......
Simply coz we dont want to think in new dimensions, we want to play safe and we always use ideas that are tried and tested over times. We never want to explore into non conquered routes of map coz we fear of getting lost. But remember,Until and unless you get lost you will never find a new way out. We always seek for ready made answers but never wanna venture into the process of making the answers. We do what everybody else do, so we will always be followers..

There are disadvantages too and what are they?
There people put themselves in front of everything,a kind of selfish act, they dont how other's would be affected due to their actions. They might know what the effect would be but they do it anyway as long as it doesn't compromise their situation.So free thinking is not always good and it will remain a curse as long as a mankind and nature is getting affected in a harmful way.

to be continued................

The Real People......

22nd Feb,Friday

It was an usual day at office.I came by ten, did some assignments then had my lunch then continued with what I was doing before lunch.It was a routine day as usual but things changed when I went for my tea break.We ordered our tea ,colleague was with me and we were quite busy sipping our tea.

A group of people were sitting on the other side of the table and laughing.From their outfits I guessed they might be working inside reactor.When I heard what they were talking I was quite amused by my guessing. It was an perfect guess.It wasn't a difficult one their suits told the tales.The Nuclear Reactor is just a km away from where I work. I was so proud to tell this to my friends, but after what I heard from that group I was a bit taken aback,felt pity on what I felt to be a good thing to boast about.

They were talking very casually, the things which we never think can occur in our life or we never want them to happen.They were talking about the radiations, nuclear radiations.No matter what they wear to protect themselves there's always a chance of exposure.One person was telling he lost his hairs, other was complaining about his bad taste buds.When the person said I have lost my taste buds other guy asked what are u sipping Coffee or tea?? and they all burst into laughter.I was speechless,I was surprised how easy they took that things.

After that group discussion over the tea I was thinking about them rather too frequently.What makes them distinct?What makes them so humorous? and what makes them going on like this as if nothing could stop them?

May be because they took life on the lighter side, they do have lot of other options with international boom for nuclear energy and it resources and companies requiring manpower ,with these sort of expertise in the field these people are second to none, but they are not willing to go.I dont think the paycheck is heavier here compared to the risk they take.I think no pay will match their dedication.Every time they go inside in this suits they very well know they are betting their life because no matter how controlled is the process, the reactor may go critical anytime, leave aside the amount of radiation they absorb each and every time.

And we back here in our cubicles does things which never even get to .01% of what they do.Still we aren't happy we still urge for more and more.And see them they are happy with what they got and they are smiling. Even though we all have came across a similar sort of situations in our life, how many of us have actually learned a lesson from such people. We tend to forget those things when we get busy with our already engaged life.They are laughing at their worries, they are enjoying their moments. They are "The real people".

सोचो तोह बहुत कुछ है सोचने के लीए,
नही सोचो तोह कुछ भी नहीं हैं ॥
हँसो और हस्ते हुए देखो इस जहाँ को ,
यूं तोह हजारों ग़म है अगर हँसे तोह कुछ भी नहीं है ॥

Zreecu's Playlist...................

My All Time Special Play list.............
To download Click on the Song Name or right click n "Save target as"/"Save Link as" n listen to my fav Collection of mp3's...............n guess what itz all Mufath mein for u.....

Various Artists:(Coolest ones)....

Milburn-What will you do(When the money goes)

Almost after 30 years Eagles are back to rock with their latest Album..
I am sure you are gonna fall in love with them again...
The Eagles-How Long
The Eagles-Fast Company
The Eagles-Do Something
The Eagles-Busy Being Fabulous
The Eagles-Somebody
The Eagles-I Dont Wanna Hear Anymore
The Eagles-No More Walks in th Woods
The Eagles-No More Cloudy Days
The Eagles-You Are Not Alone

Phil Collins-Another Day in Paradise
Eric Prydz Vs Floyd-Proper Education

The Killers- Read My Mind
Savage Garden- Affirmation
Fall Out Boy-Thanks for the Memories
Hillary Duff-What Dreams are made of

Jack Johnson-Upside Down
Jack Johnson-Better Together
Jack Johnson-Sitting Waiting Wishing

R E M-Loosing My religion
R E M-Imitation of Life

U2-It's a Beautiful Day
U2-Where the streets have no name
U2-I Still haven't found what I am looking for

Limp Bizkit-Home Sweet Home(Bittersweet Symphony)
Limp Bizkit-Behind Blue Eyes
Limp Bizkit-My way or the highway

George Michael-Careless Whispers
George Michael-Freedom 90

David Guetta-Love is gone(Original Mix)
The Police-Every Breath you take
Jim Croce-I'll have to say I love you in a song
Take That-Patience
Dire Straits- Walk of Life
Ocean Color Scene-I Just Got Over
James Blunt-You are beautiful
Mr.Mister-Broken Wings
The All American Rejects-Move Along

Best of Nickelback:

Nickelback-Rockstar
Nickelback-Photograph
Nickelback-How you remind me
Nickelback-Someday
Nickelback-Far Away

Best of Linkin Park:

Linkin Park-My December
Linkin Park-Easier to Run
Linkin Park -In Peices
Linkin Park-Bleed It Out
Linkin Park-No Roads Left
Linkin Park-From The Inside
Linkin Park-Breaking The Habit
Linkin Park-In the End
Linkin Park-Numb
Linkin Park-What I've done
Linkin Park-Shadow of the day
Linkin Park-A Place for My Head

Weslife :

Westlife-Home
Westlife-Total Eclipse of the Heart
Westlife-My Love

Backstreet Boys :

Backstreet Boys-Incomplete
Backstreet Boys-The Call
Backstreet Boys-Show me the meaning
Backstreet Boys-Never Gone

The Rasmus :

The Rasmus-Guilty
The Rasmus-Sail Away
The Rasmus-In My Life





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Lonesome Thoughts !!!!!!!!!!

Please leave me forever,
Here in my room,
Don't anyone dare to remind me,
I like being surrounded by my thoughts...
Leave me,in darkness,
Be sure,I am happy..
Leave me,in loneliness,
I promise 'I wont cry'.......

I know ,I cannot escape
The walls trap me inside,
In its solitary confinement...
Windows are de only,
Paintings on de walls that I stare..
De doors locked,
And so much for de keys,
They will never exist...

I am close to the cold walls,
Away from their thoughts.
But Still.........
What's that Still and some dots????
Nothing will it mean anymore...
Nothing it will convey anymore...

Leave me, I will survive,
Leave me, and I won't complain..
Lonesome,is what I prefer!!!!!
Because being pursued,
Breaks me,
And being lonesome is harsh,
But it heals me...................

What If !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What if, all my dreams were shattered..
What if, my flight to destiny abruptly ended..
What if, I fell from a height never before achieved..
What if, life takes its own course other than what I planned..

What if, all hopes of today seems to be lost..
What if, future appears to have a bleak prospect..
What if, things don't seem to be de way they used to be..
What if, I feel to be all alone in this life's venture..

I didn't loose hope,and never did I gave up.....
Still I have belief in myself, I will start dreaming again,
With this broken wings, I will learn to fly again,
With a new hope in my heart, I will push myself harder,
So that I can rise and be on my way again....

Ya its true 'Experience' is a cruel teacher,
And some times it acts like a preacher...
Who writes the true gospel on "Lessons of Life",
Regardless of whether or not you learn to strife..
A teacher, a preacher whatever it is, it's all for you,
coz in the last u will find it's the only thing you own....
Everything else falls apart, relationship fails,
Dreams collapse, Future seems uncertain....
No matter whatever happens, it will always,
Give u a brand new hope to start all over again....

Some say experience may "sometime" suck
n can give some real hard pain....
but not taking lessons from experience will always suck.....
...........................................................................

Missing Life !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My scars became daily reminders ,
Of who I am, or once used to be....
And who I could become again...
Believe me when I say, I tried to erase them,
But,I got brand new ones to stare at....

Everybody said being alone means,
Throwing yourself deep into pain.
But it really doesn't matter anymore,
Coz pain doesn't hurt and I know,
It's all that, I have left with, for ever.............

I know it's my and only my fault that,
No one really knows how I truly feel,
But that doesn't make it hurt any less....
I tried to run away from wild scary thoughts,
But, where can I run to escape from myself?

I never questioned my own integrity,
And I never doubted my intuition,
And never did I gave up on my dreams....
I know ,nothing can break me or lead me astray,
Coz ,I am just myself and will always stay that way.....................

I know, everybody's trying not to miss anybody,
And I know nobody will be crying for other's Absence,
And everybody had already made up their mind...
But will they or can they ever really convince,
Their heart to forget and leave everything behind....

Once I had everyone around and now I don't ,
I always stayed here and away everybody went,
This is not the first time this has happened,
Got quite used to it and this time,
It just happened that I lost,even though I was promised.....

Can't say whether it matters to you or not,
If I say that, I miss those moments more than anything...
I know, you also have the same feeling as everybody else.
But you still hold it up inside you coz, you think we are far away
but,I will always say "I am missing you" every now n then,
Coz I dunno whether I wud be there to say that tomorrow......