The Real Inception!!!!!

The title remain inconclusive...

Lot of things are happening around and they were apt to be titled this way...

To be on a more personal note I am not finding it worth enough to stay in the lifestyle that has taken the center stage of every individual....

I watched a movie named "Aashayein" and in the end it conveyed one simple message. A duel between "was" and "is", between "to be" or "not to be"... The movie used concept of death to really bring out the reality or the real meaning of life...

Fast real fast is what it is now used to describe the "need" ...Every one needs things or the output very fast to save time but then the time that is saved is redirected to another "need"...Wow why so eager to finish of time when you have lot of things to do in this saved time... Not to forget the fact that "Wants" have replaced "Needs". There used to be a thin line between them some time back, but in this age of technological and economical upwardness the line seemed to be somewhat distorted and people are easily converging those two into one. All things seems to be affordable now, but then What is actually affordable is still a question to ponder upon?? I seriously doubt whether "mental peace" fall in that list...

Slowly, ya the word is correct "Slowly" is what I am made to think what's the outcome of all this fast forwardness... and I am slowly loosing the real concept around which this world is shaping out. Am I being left out?? or am I afraid to join this run for time??? Like the movie Matrix , I am waiting to be unplugged. Now you think I am really insane but my insanity is not driven by some other factor other than that I am insane by choice for this world not that world is making me insane. BTW what is Sanity??? Does Sanity means do things what others do or think the way what other people think... Then do we need a brain if we all are programmed to think the same way?? 

Why I want to be seriously unplugged???

Need a reason for that?? Then here are some...

* Isn't life a compromise: compromise for the real dream with the real world reality?? Or is it really a real world reality??

* Happiness quotient is defined on a world scale where simple and calm thinking is replaced by a greater world thinking....

*  Being individual is to be someone out of group rather than one more brain to think the same way...

The reasons can go on on but then who is gonna number them when it always comes to the process of  reducing the number of constraints...

Am I thinking too much or am I dreaming???
Wherein all the projections of this dream life is converging on me???
Am I dreaming for myself or am I in some one else's dream???
Might be thinking this person has gone mad?? But then that thought is yours, not mine....

Zreecu's 1-2-3 liners

• Things change when they change ;-) But what that matters is whether people change along with them   ;-) .. Its quite hard to get the natural persona back ...So why does then people change when the persona they were once proud of changes with those things ;-) 

• Quotes are worth reading when they come from someone else's experience ;-)

• I write, I read, I think, but these actions seems to be mutually exclusive ;-)

• I think, I write, but then all my thoughts aren't written always ;-)

• I read , I think, but the things I read aren't the things I end up thinking about ;-)

• This page seems to be quite common to everyone's experience but then experience is an degree of individualistic thoughts....Similar to  "what I see is not what you want to see?".

• Once I used to be serious, but then I don't seriously remember when that "once" was ;-)

• I have met many people but "many" is just a term to describe the number, in the core they all end up being of the same mentality only ;-) 

• You can copy any or all of these but will that really make you "me"???

•  I haven't conquered the world, I am not the richest and definitely I am not perfect, but all I know is I am the best I can be by being myself and my dreams are not inspired by others.

• Everyone's trying to chase dreams. But have they ever stopped and realized what exactly their dreams are.. Most of the people are working hard to earn more, live a high status life, earn a reputation in the society but that is what "Most " of the people do.So where's the difference. Individual dreams are still in their locker rooms and sadly "Most" of them have lost the key to it. 

•   "LIFE" is a four lettered question with an four lettered answer "LIVE".  

• RELATION is a one way bridge. Everyone expects the "FLOW" to be towards them.

• Its sometimes better to keep some people as strangers rather than ending up on the wrong side by considering them as friends.But then whom to choose???

• I chose to remain silent, at least I made a choice...and for what?? Don't ask me.I can't answer that coz I am Silent ;-)
  

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Beer Story

It was quite hot in the evening.Delhi in June is usually hot.So after all my evening chores...I was on my bike... Almost clueless where to go but I thought thinking cud be done on the way...

Suddenly something popped up in my mind... It wasn't too long that I had some company with me..My rear seat already had a net which is used to hold things... And after a long time it was holding something very chilled.2 Ice cold Beer bottles.It was quite soothing and tempting just to see the chilled vapor covering the containers.Was in a different world when I spotted Red @ the traffic light. And when coming to sense it was enough to stop myself from crossing the Zebra cross.

That 2 minutes seemed long enough.I was just biting my time when another bike came around me and stopped just in front of me. A guy with a gal. Thats where the funny parts starts. The guy glanced at my rear seat and then smiled at me with a sense of missing feeling that was all over his face. That smile was short lived by a sudden response from his back. U need that or me. Should have seen the face he made. Poor guy.. Just before the red light was about to turn green I just whispered A beer is better than woman coz hang overs are only temporary(No offences gals... Beer doesn't demand u 2 change)..and I bet the same thought crossed his mind too...

Pen Down....

Eyes glued to the bars of the window pane,
I amassed the strength to switch the pen back on.
As if I got something to scribble but then again..
I ran out of words to title the beginning,
Dunno how many times I repeated the act,
Switching on and off out of sheer frustration.

The blank paper on my letter pad,
Still untouched and still so blank with whiteness.
Nothing comes to my head,
As I tried to think of things to write.
Right through the dark night,
I Juggled with phrases 'can I' or 'can't I'??

Would this be the beginning of the end?
Even if it is, what would it end? I dunno!!!
I've come to a point where my feelings,
No longer just jump off my thoughts
and get themselves inscribed on the paper.

I stared down again,
And pushed my hand again,
Still, nothing but dead silence.
I placed the pen down on the paper.
Didn't even bothered to shut the pen off .
I'll let it dry and leave the paper blank.
I think it's better that way..

Happiness

"People take different roads seeking fulfillment n happiness.Just bcoz they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost"

Quite a thought provoking quote if u are a thinking kind of person.The thing is that you shouldn't compare you with anybody else in any matter.Why I say so.. Just think every person is unique and that makes definition of happiness different for each n every person. Thinking that the other person isn't enjoying his life by traversing a way other than yours isn't really true always...

Think for a moment, there might be a chance that there's a guy working along with you, same in all respects(i.e position, financial assets n so on).. but you may think that he is either more happier or less happier than you. But its your thinking point of view, not his. He might think the same way for you too.So the basic underlying fact is that when it comes to happiness each person have his own quotient that is totally different from every other person. And the thing that we try to measure happiness makes it all far too complex. Each person have his own scale and when they try to measure things with some scale other than theirs then it's quite obvious that the scale tend to give wrong readings.

We always tend to term the time either as happy or bad. Why so? We can't know what happiness is, if we haven't have any idea how sad times react. The bad thing about happy times is that it will end someday and the good thing about bad times is that it will also end someday. So it's a cycle.. Nobody has remained happy forever and same goes for being unhappy...It's just the way life treats. You might have an example of somebody being happy always or the other way round.. That all depends on how the person presents himself in front of everyone.. He might have 1000 issues that's concerning him in deep but he presents a smiling face to the world.. Then there's a person who have lost all hope and don't know how to present himself will be kinna gloomy always. So whom do you prefer for a company?

The thing that matters is what you think about How happy you actually are? And whether you wanna make others happy? As it is said the only thing that always grow is the smile.... Just wear a smile even though that smile may be hollow but at least it may bring a smile to some other face.

Far 2 Many Choices......

Sometimes the present will be held responsible for what you have become, coz its in present where you are gonna make a choice...May be sometimes the past will be held responsible for what you have become,coz of choices that were made by you in the past...And sometimes the future will be held responsible for what you turn out to be, coz of the choices it will offer you to choose from... But its always you who will be responsible for what you have become...

Choices make you get what you deserve to get by making that choices, Choices make you loose what that's choices decides not to be yours. And what you choose is what that decides between your past present and future. And that same choices differentiates the day as present past or future. Choices in the past to learn from,choices in the present to choose from, and choices in the future for making a better choice..

God gives .. man accepts or rejects,But its life's logic you end up with what you have right now,coz you choose to accept or reject.. You choose or you choose not to choose,But the choices are already made by you. So, what if you want other options...Nothing coz there are no other options when you already made a choice... Bit confusing isn't it,but that's how life should be. You will never know but you always thought you were always very sure, And that degree of surety is what that makes your choices...

So choose wisely.. Life is not a relay race. Its just one dash and you dont have to hold too many batons coz in this run for life if you choose to hold on to too many things you will leave the most important one..That's the Life itself.Life:That's something you can't be sure of but you thought you can or will be..But when you get to know this truth you would have already lived your life..So thanks for reading this not so sure blunder.. but I made a choice to put it forward. And you chose to read this..hhmmm!

But will you make the real choice...
I have made mine ..When will u be making urs....

Does Life Knocks Twice???

A time was there when we were never worried about the way life would turn coz we were happy with the way it passed.We were amazed by the opportunities it presented us each day to enjoy the present, forget the past and never think about the future.We had the opinion that one can only live one day at a time. And that was it, that thought helped us deal with each and every obstacle that came knocking by, coz we took one thing at a time instead of working on all of them simultaneously. That was great as it led us to understand each and every aspect of things that came along like Why,How,When they happened? It was revealing as it gave us enough ways to learn the full cycle of life's happenings. And now we know why that era was so brilliant? Now we know how life was totally different at that time?Why?It's so simple to answer that..And the answer is "We had enough courage to peek into ourselves and see for ourselves what we as an individual were..".

Not so clear about the last sentence I suppose.Simple.. being an individual back then meant,we thought about our happiness and the things that made us happy and we were so interested to do such things.We never feared doing new things(termed as blunders by others) as we were ready to accept the consequences coz we never valued those consequences in terms of money, reputation or society status...But now we are more worried about the risks and how it will affect us..so what do we do now?The same thing what others do..Always thinking of being in the closed security loop of money, status and society. Never wanna be a 'talked about individual' coz we failed when we tried to do something different. As I said we want to be on the safer side...Guess what? The safer side is always dull coz it's decided by the society or people around us and slowly it becomes our view.So our happiness quotient is not decided by us but some total different person altogether.You are happy because others think you are happy.Is it?You work hard, you spend most of your time at work making things look better and for a better life ahead but you forget that you are living right now.Then someone will say you have to sacrifice something now to get rewards in future. Hindi mein kya boltein hain "Kuch paane ke liye kuch khona padtha hai"....We do take this proverb seriously right?But what about this one "Time n tide waits for none".We did took this one seriously back in our childhood.

For instance the main issue back in childhood was Exams. Examinations used to be a difficult word to describe or understand. The time when you pour out all that you learned all along the year.A simple definition and I think it fits. All year you will be learning thousands of new things then one fine morning you have to spill out a part of what you learned, still something is left behind.And then you are being judged by the figure upon 100. Now you might be thinking what examinations has to do with what I wrote above i.e, living one day at a time. Actually it is very much related only thing is that how you relate that. You prepare de whole year for de exam and the last 3 hours is where you make the difference.You gain the knowledge day by day and not all in a single day.Ya I agree there were times when you have to do it on the last day(to do the whole subject de previous day) but the thing is that you were there on each day to gain something and that will help you in future.You learned in each single day and it helps in the last. You didn't kept the things for the last day to finish off then Why is that you keep on pushing living to some next day or thinking to enjoy things only during the holidays. During those days you very well knew you will never get a second chance if you miss the time, and do remember you will never get a second chance to live. In the last few hours of your life you will only think of how you lived rather than what you accomplished.Don't kill today for the sake of tomorrow's happiness...

Remember whatever absurd excuses we used to give if we end up late at school coz we chased some birds on the way..It was so much fun running thru the bushes and then creating an excuse from thin air. Now I agree we do make excuses, but the context is far to different.Now we give excuses to ourselves.The biggest excuse we give to ourselves is that we are now grown up, more mature and we have to act more responsibly.. and that means we have to work real hard to save for the future.You can only save money dear.. not time for the future... time is the only thing that never accumulates.. it always leak..

It's not easy to sum up what life is or what it means to live..
but it's not difficult or impossible either..
Life is what you live...
Not what you wait to live..

A Moral Check....

Lot of mess around this Valentine day...
The Moral Police.. the Cultural Activists...
Oh god, they sometime really suck...
This time it was the Pub culture which started the fire..
Everyone was praising and taking part in that "Pink Chaddi" movement..
Oh crap.. will that change anything...I assume the rivalry only got deeper n deeper..

Just one question to everyone..
You like ur friend to come with you to a pub
but wud never like your Brother or Sister doing the same..
Why?
Some will argue as long as they stay in limit its ok..
but what is the limit?question is not tht.Who decides the limit..
Every individual is different and they have their own set of Moral rules...
Then the limit is definitely decided by they themselves.
But what he/she forget is that they cant make other people to stay within his/her limits..

Youngsters say they venture out to pub coz they wanna enjoy time with their frnds..
It was not long back that frnds used to gather up for a dinner at home and enjoyed their time and have some wonderful dinner..ya some parents do not allow Alcohol... but most of them dont mind if it's a beer function...Parents are also changing..they allow minor freedoms so that the child dont feel entirely tied down...

Nowadays the other most common culprit is PDA(Public Display of Affection)...which some people are trying to impose on a culture that is quite reserved..Just don know why are they doing things in open..what do they wanna prove...its just a show off I think..

Everybody is trying to catch a culture that's far more western. No matter how hard people try to imitate, their imitation will always be at least a century behind.Coz people are just following their lifestyle, regardless of the actual mindset they should be in. No matter what, until and unless they dont take western mindset into consideration,whatever they do will still be termed as "following".What we miss is that people there are free to think, free to adapt and most important they are open to any idea. They believe in doing something new every time and every time they do it it set standards for people over here to follow.And what do we do..Blindly follow..Thinking that what they do is cool and they are enjoying...

People will do what Americans do when they are in US..
But why can't they be an Indian when in India....
As the old proverb goes "While in Rome do as Romans do"..
I just changed it..."While in India do as U like"
Coz Indians actually forgot what Indians do.... ;-)
The moral Police forget that Indians are the greatest forgivers...
The so called modern people forget the privacy of a relation...

I will not be wrong if I say the culture is going for a toss..
And by Culture I didn't mean Superstitions...
By Culture I meant:
A Promise to be good to others,
A Thought for a peaceful society,
A Service to help those in need,
A Trust to believe in others...
A Sense to differentiate between good and bad..
A Mindset to embrace all cultures without loosing what we have within...
A Faith to understand everyone,
A Prayer for the equality,
A Blessing to free the humanity...

....These are my views.. put in your views and opinions about the recent happenings...this is an open discussion... all are welcome to post their concerns...

Dream, Reality and Us:

Actually these three things are one and the same i.e Dream , Reality and Us. Why because it's us who dream to make things real. It is always a good viewpoint to see the world as a dream. When you have something like a nightmare, you will wake up and tell yourself that it was only a dream. It is said that the world we live in is not a bit different from this.

There's a fine line between dream and Reality.The line stands for de actual relation between these two worlds rather than a way to differentiate them.It's not a line that's between them but it's across them.Some of us see it as the seperator but actually it is a path that connects both these worlds in every aspect of life just like a bridge.

If one thinks that dreams can never be real then the same fine line becomes wider in the sense tht it differentiates them to a greater extent. The moment one thinks that somethings are not possible to acheive then they find it near to impossible to walk across that bridge.

Some people say dreams come true when miracle happen and they wait forever for that miracle to happen and slowly the line widens. People say dream for the Moon atleast u will land up at stars. Dont get carried away and dream big. Dream simple, coz if dreams dont come true then thers's one thing that will hurt more than the disappointment of not acheiving what you dreamt of. And that one thing is that we gradually loose our belief in dreams coming true.
Dont dream that one fine morning you will fly across the world with wings coming out of nowhere, rather dream of saving money to get yourself tickets to fly. Dont dream of becoming rich instead you dream of utilising what you have in hand to de best. Dont dream of a life full of comforts rather dream of moments of happiness in life that are yet to come coz they only give you hope to work harder and better to live life to the fullest. In short dreams are day to day plans that are very much real only thing is that you must make them work for your own advantage...

So its upto you to decide how fine that line should be....

As someone said:
"Dreaming is not an accident. It is not a wistful idea you hope will come true. Dreaming is not the stuff of long-haired hippies wistfully running along a beach. No! Dreaming is a sophisticated tool used by the elite of our society to make themselves and this world a better place. People like Millard Fuller, founder of Habitat for Humanity, Warren Buffet, Col. Sanders and Walt Disney all started with a dream. The dreams started small, but like the trickle of water that eventually formed the great Grand Canyon, DREAMS ARE POWERFUL!"

A silent thought into "Indian-ness"....

We celebrated our 60th Independence day. Dunno How many of us really celebrated? And what does celebration means? Ya may be sending some patriotic forwards and mails to frnds. That's all...this has become the modern feeling of Indian-ness.

Indian-ness....
What is Indian-ness?
Indian-ness is not ethereal that circumnavigates around the religion or philosopy, but it is something that we slowly acquire from our parents,grand parents over time. A stream of feelings that we develop for the fellow human beings, a love for human kind. This is what our culture taught us.Dunno how much we are going to pass this culture to coming generation??

India : A country that has all the ingredeints to make it the best and unique in this world. Thats the way I define what India means to me and how much I am proud of my country.Rather than an physical entity surrounded by boundaries ,"India" is actually a perception of great people like Gandhi, Tagore, Vivekananda. Its a feeling that has nowadays strives hard to find its own identity because many a times we fail to carry forward that vision.

This was Tagore's vision of a great India(Geetanjali in Bold letters) and let's compare how it fare in this said to be an modern India.

Where the mind is without fear : Fear of loosing job, loosing status , money and all kind of fear engulfed everyone.

Where the head is held high: only to bow down to self desires and greed.

Where the knowledge is free: ya Education is free only if you have money to buy it.

Where the world is not broken up into fragments by narrow domestic walls: with all these riots and communalisms, this statement too doesn't hold anymore.

Where words come out from the depth of truth: can you find truth anywhere, its scandals and corruption from beginning to the top of the system.

Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection: only towards the perfection of economy of oneself.

Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way into the dreary desert sand of dead habit:there's no clear stream of reason left, everybody trying to fulfill their own dreams(dead habit), rather than coming together for a common cause of India.

Where the mind is led forward by thee into ever-widening thought and action: narrow minded people fill this country with a narrow minded sort of actions.

Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake: I am glad that Mahatma Gandhi is no more , because he would really have been ashamed. We are free physically but we are slowly giving away our mental freedom to get something that is really not ours.

I am not saying every person is straying away from truth(the real meaning if Indian-ness), but the truth is that narrow minded people outnumbered the real one's.

Is that vision lost now???
Yes we are loosing it gradually. Its true as Dipankar Gupta(Sociologist) says" Indians aren't so much modern as they are westoxicated".Similar is the view of Madhulika Khandelwal,author of "Becoming American, Being Indian". She says " In this age of globalisation with young men and women coming from their hometowns to Bangalore, Mumbai, Delhi and making money, being independent of parental censure is fast leading to the development of a new society in which those old snobberies of linguistic, cultural and ethnic origin aren't so important".

See around for yourself what changes do you see? How are we binded to the society that we are living right now that is far away from your home(hometown). What binds us to the present society and what binds us to the our hometown?. Dont think society in terms of group of individuals , think it as "the way of thinking" or perception of individuals who are living in a group.Whats the ambiance that this present society creates around us??

This aggressive globalisation is making us loose our distinct identity of being an Indian. And how will this affect we dont know as when a culture changes victims are usually the last to know about it. Now who are the victims, definitely we are not, coz we are right now witnessing this transition of time and culture. We know both these cultures coz we are in between them and we are slowly moving away from one to the other.We know what we are loosing gradually over this time, things that will never be brought back.

By culture I don't mean the superstitions, the caste difference or the blind rituals that are followed by people . It's a feeling of sacrifice, it's a feeling that keeps those men at the borders to keep us sleeping tight, it's a feeling that no matter whatever happens, we can hold on.

By chasing this western culture,it's not the things that we are loosing instead we are unknowingly sacrificing feelings. Feelings that usually used to bind people far away, feelings that people hang on to during worst ever scenarios that itself brings out the best in them, feelings that make us cry and laugh at the same time. And see now what feeling each individual has towards each other.The more a person falls behind the value of a family, the more he lives for his own the less he will concern about the fellow being, coz its in the family where an individual think in terms of us rather than me.
Relations no longer hold any value, people tend to think all these relations comes out of necessity and indeed it is becoming going that way only. Everything happens due to necessity. Necessity is slowly eating into the emotional value that has been here for centuries. Wait and watch that time is not far, actually it has already begun to happen, where children consider their parents just like an bank account.

Sandeep once asked me "One thing I cant understand is, why are the parents sending their children away from them even without trying for a life in their own land.Why are parents not aware of the future life their kids have to experience?". I replied that its the urge within those parents to see their kids economically independent, but this urge is letting those kids only earn all the time in life rather than finding time to live for themselves, coz meaning of life has changed. First it was "earning for living", now its "Living for earning".

Friends often ask me why do I always have a grudge against this fast moving world, I always tried to make them understand that I am not against but I am only worried about how it is going to be after some time if we continue this way of life.But they never understood,and sadly they feel I am afraid of being left out and in one sense I didn't tried to clarify that opinion.I have seen things happen, I have been around to places and I have seen different cultures mingle together , but never they lost their individual identity but this mingling of Indian to the west will definitely leave no trace of our diversified culture.

Think about it.I am not saying to follow the old traditions blindly but at least we can keep those moral values within us to pass on to the next Generation.

Hope this has at least made you think about the present way the society is heading to. I think there is no wrong in waiting for your responses coz I am expecting them from you.

"Kanishka"........

Sunday, May 20...

Runcy came from Pune. We met after 4 years and we had a nice time together. We enjoyed watching "Spiderman 3" and had a long chat about the happenings in life. After bidding goodbye to Runcy by 4.30, I left from Andheri. I got a train from Andheri to Dadar, then another train from Dadar to Kurla.

I boarded a train from Kurla to Mankhurd. I was on a call when someone pulled my shirt, I turned around and saw a little cute girl. She is about 5 to 6 years old, in a pink colored skirt. She was still clinging on to my shirt. Slowly I pulled my shirt out of her little hands and asked her "What u want"? She didnt say a word, calmly stared at my eyes. I took a 2 rupee coin and dropped in her hand and continued my call. She pulled my shirt again. This time I felt a bit nagged and stared at her angrily. Holding her breath she opened her mouth and said "Bhayya I am lost".

I was totally moved by her trembling voice. She whispered again "Bhayya I am lost".
For a moment I didnt know what to do and say. I waited for a while, put my call on hold and kneeled down to have a good look at her. I asked wht happened dear?What's your name?How come you are here?where do you live? where are you going? She was totally puzzled. Ya I will also be puzzled if someone ask me this number of questions in an instant. I paused and asked her again, what's ur name kid?
She murmured "Kanishka".
What happened Dear?
"Bhayya I am lost".
I cant believe, Usually kids got lost in buziest crowds, but not today as it is sunday today and there is no rush in trains. How come her parents can loose her ?
Did you come with someone?
She was silent.
Where is your home?
Near railway station.
Oh no there are more than 100 stations in mumbai. Which one she is talking about? Anyway her station will be on the harbour side only coz central n western stations are too far for a kid like her and someone might have noticed her if she crossed the foot over bridge.
Which station I asked?
She was mum.
I asked her again, Baba kaun sa station?
Patha nahin(Dont know).
Accha station ke pass kahan pe hai?(Where is your home near station?)
Station ke paas hi hai. Wahan lal lal busen bahut aati hai,aur wahan pe bahut saari auto bhi hain" (Itz somewhat near station, lot of red buses comes there and therre are lot of auto rickshaws ).
Oh my god!!! this could be anywhere. Ther's lot of stations with BEST bus stand nearby them.
But as per her way of description I guessed it would be Kurla.
I asked a fellow passenger " Have you seen this kid before?".
He replied "I saw her after Kurla only".
So it's Kurla station, about which she is telling.

The train already reached Chembur. What shud I do?
Shall I go back to Kurla or hand her over to police at Chembur itself.
I decided to alight @ chembur. Coz in both case I have to alight here only.
I asked her,
" Kaunse school mein padathi ho"?(In which school do you study).
She said"Ghar ke paas hai".
Fuzzy answers I thought.
She knows where she belong but couldnt tell where exactly is the place, similar to a person who can very well see the destination but dunno how to reach there.
I couldnt make up my mind to hand her over to police......
So what to do?
Shall I go there and search with her, her own house.
I took her along with me over the foot over bridge to the other side to catch the next train bound to CST.
She was so afraid and I too dunno how to convince her coz I too wasnt sure about the things that will happen next.Whether we get to her home or I will have to hand her over to police @ Kurla.

Next train to CST was @ 5.28. I waited for the train to come. I was still clueless shud I board this train or not. Anyway I will go to Kurla n will decide what to do.

She clinged on my hand all the way to Kurla.
We reached kurla in 10 minutes.
I went to the foot over bridge to the East side of Kurla station, coz there was the BEST bus station. We reached there and I prayed inside myself that this should be it, before asking her anything.
Before I could ask her anything she yelled "yehi hai, yehi hai, wahi auto sabhie wohi hai".
Oh god I was relieved, coz we were at the right place.
Then I asked her "Where do you live"?
"Near to the school".
Which School?
Behind this bus stand.
Which side?
"Come I will show you".
She grasped my hand tightly and took me along,there was a delight in her eyes.
I felt calm and thanked god.
She pulled me through the narrow path along the auto rickshaw stand. After around 5-10 minutes of walking she said my home is in the next gali" we took a right turn and went along the crowded street with small hutments on both sides of the street. "Ther's my home"...she pointed to second last hut. She was all in smiles n giggles. Atlast we made it, no she made it...
We were now in the front of the hut, but it was locked from the front.
I asked her is ther's nobody here? where are your parents , brothers or sisters?
She said baba went to sell khulfi's, mama will be at some home, she is maid and I dont know where my brother is.. I have seen him in the afternoon.
I was wondered by her way of reply, she is the same kid who was afraid to speak up, and see now she is all with words..
I asked how come she got into the train. She told she with her frnds went to station to play and when she entered the train , it started moving.
I asked what abt your frnds?
"I dont know. Shall I go and find out".
I said please dont. Sit here till your parents come otherwise I will tell them you went in a train to chembur.
Shall I?
She said "plz bhayya nahin bathaana nahin tho baba bahut maarenge...".
Her cute little smile fade away.
I said ok I will not tell, but promise me you will not move from here till your parents come, saying that I bought her a Munch from the nearby shop and handed it to her.
I was so relieved after this whole episode, at last I was able to take her to her home... I am happy.....
On my way back I thought Where are those playgrounds? If there were any playground nearby then she might not have went all the way to station. Daily many people die on the tracks.But she lived. I thanked God for that.
I went to station and caught the next train to Mankhurd.
By 8.00 pm I was @ home, I am happy n delighted today.
Kanishka was my sole reason for happiness today....