My recent visit to Godz Own Country-Part 5(Concluding Part)

Dunno how these days passed so quickly. I always felt de best days were those in which I waited for de moment to start to home, it was so much of fun to count de remaining days.Now I am in home preparing to return.A sad feeling creeps upto heart, oh cant I have few more days.On my way home in train i thought thru this route i will pass again but with a heavy heart..those places which made me happy once will become a burden on de way bak. Am I leaving my home.More than my home I leaving behind a feeling, a feeling even if I try to carry over there will be of no use.. But one thing, whatever i left here i am sure i will retain them de moment I come again.So my waiting starts again dunno how long I have to wait, but i will be bak here one day, after all everybody lives in a hope, I am leaving today with a hope of returning in my heart. Today I definitely have to carry on de hangover, have to break all my rules once again.. have to get accoumsted to other set of rules tht doesnt have a part of mine in them.

Eventhough a lot of people were there @ de station but I felt a silence in each face. Everybody was just waiting for de train to come, as if they just want to run away. I also felt the same pain, why people luk different on their way bak? why they luk sad? dont they know u have to leave to get bak later, u have to part to meet later.I came alone as I cant see people waving me gudbye. This is lesson of life, de things or persons u luv de most are kept away so tht u miss them every moment to let u know how u r incomplete without them. I believe I learned tht lesson. Here it comes, de train which brought me is now here to take me bak. I think i hate this train now more than ever, this is de same train which gave me a lot of moments to cherish, now it is here to change those moments to memories. I hate it, no I am loving it for presenting me such a wonderful boquet of memories.

I got a window seat. Do I need this seat? What will I stare @ now?Can I see things de same way? No was de answer to all de questions tht rose in my mind. But I gathered de strength to luk around, dunno when i will see these places again. AC was so chilling, de coach attendant gave me a pillow and a blanket. I thought of covering my face with it, so that i dont have to see anything. What a rubbish idea? I opened my kit, took out my Selected Editions buk and turned over to page number 91. It was a story of a broker who was involved in a big scandal. I no longer felt it interesting anymore. Closed it even before completing a page. My mind was restless. I wished I had brought my sleeping pills, checked my baggage once again but tht was to in vain.

I thought "Cant i get a gud job in here somewhere?". After 2 years father will return to settle down here. Cant I be with my family then? He had left Kerala @ de age of 17, to serve military, he have given 36 years of his life for his job without any complaints, why am i complaining then?. His job is a dangerous one, encounters, life threatening attacks, he overcame all those, still he thinks what he will do when he retires? What a commitment? Why shud i be left behind in that? And slowly I get engaged in my work mentally, coz day after tomoro I have to get involved in new assignments. Need to format my mind kepping a backup of all de memories to cherish later thinking about those moments. Now I felt a bit easier n relieved. Leaned out door once again to feel the air...A travel to write about was about to finish in a matter of few hours..needed to pen down this feeling.. tried to put my heart out in this, but still ther's a lot of left to convey..may be sometime later..may be during my next travel...

My recent visit to Godz Own Country-Part 4

De long hours of train journey, and now this travel was taking a huge toll on me. After my visit to Sabarimala, I was waiting to lay hands on fish curry prepared by my aunt. Oh I cant explain how delicious it was.Thts wht we call homely fud. By evening i just went for a walk with cousin brother along de paddy fields and de channel which fetches water for de fields. Long bak we used to take bath in this channel.It was so much of fun then, I asked my cousin "Shall we have a bath in this cold water"."Oh com'on we have grown up" was his reply and it didnt took me long to understand he is not interested. Why do we grow old?" Ok whtz ur plan for de night, dining out", he asked. "No baba I will have fud from home only, will have a beer if u insist".He said ok.

Soon we were cruising on de highway.Itz was so easy to ride a bike here, no traffic nothing to disturb you on de road. Everything seemed to be so perfect, just then my cell rang.It was mama, " wht r u doing?I know what r u upto?Itz not gonna happen today.We have to visit an aunt so comebak as early as possible" n she hang up de fone. She knows itz always better to hang up fone before i protest n she did de same thing today. I came bak soon, with a silent protest in my eyes I luked at her. She said "better luck next time". So days were jus passing by visiting relatives n riding bike. On sunday i told her I needed a break, i am going to see my frnds @ trivandrum and will stay there overnight. She told me to come bak early in de morning, I said yes and started for Trivandrum. Sandeep came to pick me up and we all had a nice time together. In de evening I went to see one of my best frnd, it was so nice to meet her after a gap of 7 years. She was going to US next week so ther's no better time than de time we met. On monday morning i was bak @ my home. Atlast 9 days of travel came to an end, but tht was for just one day. Next day I had to start again.

I have just 5 more days left, and de countdown started. De saddest part of every vacation started. Last 5 days more or less revolved around Temple City of Harippad, visiting temples, Mama was also preparing to go back to Delhi, she will come back next month with dad for a month's stay. Brother was also enjoying his time watching films, visiting frnds and i was stuck in front of TV watching my favorate channels.Oh I forget to tell I won de cricket series next two days. What an acheivement, felt like lifting de World Cup. And days passed on and de day came which i hated de most, itz not de day of my travel bak, but de day before. Oh itz so hard to tell people i am going tomoro.Mama asked me to come to Delhi next time, I told mama it wud be better we can come here next time. It was de longest night of my stay here. So all's gonna be over by today, tomoro i will start for Mumbai..............

Part 5:
http://sreekumar147.blogspot.com/2007/03/my-recent-visit-to-godz-own-country_4954.html

My recent visit to Godz Own Country-Part 3

Itz twilight and almost 6 pm,de diffused light is coloring the canvas with crimson red color... havent i seen this before?? did something like this ever happened in Mumbai..afterall de same sun was there too n de vast blue umbrella sky is also de same.. but i havent seen it there, may be i didnt get enough time or i didnt get myself to enjoy this small beautiful things which we oversee always.Whatever may be de reason I dont wanna figure it out now..i just wanna enjoy seeing things happen here. So after a long time i get to know wht actually we all meant by "Gud Evening"...

I wandered around ,checking out things whether they have changed and whatever new things came up during my absence.... nothing much except some plants tht have grown up... "when will these plants bear fruits" I asked not knowing from whom i was expecting an answer.. it will take 2 to 3 years replied grandma.. i turned around saw her standing behind me... staring at me from top to bottom.. "u have grown weak my boy, dont u eat anything there, ah u dont get our kind of fud there"..she asked and she gave de answer too..."yes grandma i miss our type of fud there, itz very hard to get a South Indian kinna dish over there"
. She beacame weak too.. last year she had an accident... she broke her leg...and now she walks with the help of a stick.. poor grandma clearly shows de burden of oldage...

"Shall we play cricket" asked my brother with a bat n tennis ball in his hand.. "let him take rest u can play tomoro,itz already dark outside" mama's voice came from kitchen.. "Plz bhayya just a single 3 overs match".. i said ok...and we both marched to our "Lords" just in front of home..not a big place but we made it luk big with smaller boundaries...from a single match we ended up playing a series of 5 matches which he won comfortably 3/2.. i was no match for him afterall i missed lot of practice games...practice games where de hell will i practice bak in Mumbai.. i told him de next day's series will be mine and he said "we will see"....

I felt a bit tired..needed to have a nap..slowly i crawled up de steps and went to hall.. oh my gudness lotz of people inside .. mama , grandma, aunts, granddaughters..all in front of TV..their favourate Serial was about to begin..."mama will i get dinner tonight" I asked..mama replied " I have already prepared it"...i went inside my room, had a small nap..then had my dinner and bid an early gudnight to everyone seated in front of TV.Lying on bed staring into darkness...i was soon into thoughts... thinking about all my previous stay @ home... thinking about frnds who came here with me n de housewarming ceremony.. felt as if that was yesterday....

Dunno when i slept after dinner, mama woke me up with a cup of tea in her hand...de best part of staying @ home..having bed tea right in your bed...I asked mama any plans for today..she said "we r going to Kollam today evening..U will go to Sabarimala from there tomoro with cousins.. everybody is waiting there for u"..that reminded me i came here for visiting places..
By 10am i was ready to go to town...going to one of my frnd's home."mama i will walk till de bus stop".."OK".. i started along de path i walked long bak..many new houses have came up..no other changes..i reached bus stops in 15 minutes..ya bus services have improved, got my bus within 2 minutes..

My cell rang..call from office.."ya i reached here safely, will get bak to u in de evening" saying tht i put my fone in a silent mode..enough of this buzy life...i am @ home n i am free to do anything..ya ya i convinced myself.Went straight to frnd's home,met her parents.. was so gud to see them.Had my lunch from there Amma's special vegetarian fud...@ 4 Pm i started from there as we have to catch de 4.45 bus to Kollam, mama n brother r waiting for me @ bus station.We are going to my mama's parental home,from there we will go to Sabarimala.Reached there @ 8 PM. Everybody was waiting over there. So gud to see everybody gathered over a single place, "relations still hold values here" I thought.

Part 4:
http://sreekumar147.blogspot.com/2007/03/my-recent-visit-to-godz-own-country_02.html